Post-grad: Exciting or Scary?

Graduation is in 7 weeks!

The past four years of my college career has literally flown by, and the scary thing is, as I'm in the process of job hunting and not knowing where I'll be after May 16, the days keep zipping by faster and faster! Time goes by so slowly when you are bored out of your mind, but when you actually have something to enjoy, like the last few weeks of my senior year, it goes by at warp speed.

So I've never really given myself the chance to fall in love with Virginia Tech the way the other 16,000 students did and that's something I guess I kind of regret... Coming back from Barcelona, I dreaded having to spend my last semester in Blacksburg, VA. As I've traveled to various metropolitan cities, I've grown to love and embrace that lifestyle and to well, dread living with the cows in no man's land. So coming back with that kind of mindset, I inevitably ended up driving back home every weekend--a 4 hour drive, 4 weekends in a row. A little ridiculous, don't you think? But these past 2 weekends that followed spring break, I was forced to stay down here due to a cappella performances we had. But to my surprise, I really enjoyed being here! The lifestyle is definitely a lot more chill and the night scene isn't as fantastical as it would be in LA or Barcelona, but on the up side, the drinks are cheaper, the bars are more crowded with familiar faces, and it's so care-free! I've actually started loving the life here in Blacksburg! Sadly, I only have several more weeks to enjoy it. But as the saying goes, "Better late than never"...right? I'm just glad that I finally am getting to experience the love for Blacksburg that my colleagues have been enjoying for the past 4 years.

So now, I'm frantically thinking of every possible post-grad option there is for me and contacting all my networks, researching companies, etc. etc. Even just a few months ago, thinking up every option was one of the last things on my mind. Well first of all, let's just hope that I graduate and walk in May... granted that I pass my classes, I'll be fine. But with these intense classes and endless group projects, and managing all that with my frantic job search, I'm just praying and crossing my fingers that all will go as planned. Wish me luck?
I know for a fact that I want to end up living in LA. I've always felt a calling since birth to live there, even before I've ever visited! And after I went for the first time 4 years ago (after the 1 time I went to Disneyland at age 1), my love for the city was confirmed. I felt my destiny calling. Haha so of course I made sure I went back a few more times. :) Anyway... I can also see myself going to Korea and maybe find some work there and see what might be out there for me... and of course there's Barcelona. I would also love to go out to Barcelona to work, play and live for just a couple years! Although I despise cold weather, I'm even keeping NYC as an option. Beggars can't be choosers, and as of now, with the current economic status, I'm definitely considered a beggar.

I always thought I wanted to pursue entertainment as a singer, actress and model and after my short-lived glory days after competing in Miss Korea, I was sure that entertainment was the path that I would end up taking. I mean, how was I not supposed to think that when I had offers literally thrown in my face and even random people suggesting that I got into entertainment. As much as this new life sounded like all glitz and glam, money and fame, I knew I had to get my college degree first before I took on any risky career. Now that I've put in my 4 years and (soon to be) got my college degree, I don't know if that is what I want anymore. I've always had a passion for performing and I'd like to use my God-given talents and not let them go to waste, I just don't know if I still have that burning flame in my heart anymore. Do I want to take a risk and go for it? Or should I just take a "safer route" by using my Marketing degree in some firm? I love fashion and definitely can picture myself working for a designer or even for a fashion magazine, I honestly believe passion will lead you to success. I don't want to be stuck in a job that I hate, even if that means making good money. I think I would rather choose the lower paid job that I am passionate about and work up that ladder to be successful in the long run. As you can see, my thoughts are all jumbled but that's really how I feel: confused.

I have so many dreams and aspirations, which I know is so much better than having none at all, but I wish I could have a more focused dream. I guess the only thing I can really do is leave all my options open and let Him lead the way.

But overall, I'm really excited to see what's in store for me post-grad!!